My come to Jesus Moment

Woke up this morning, still had same stupid sickness running down my nose and coughing up out of my lungs.

Went to school, worked effortlessly for three hours on a editing a video due in one week and forgot to save and lost everything when computer froze. I did however get my french oral interview rescheduled after I ran across campus to prove to my professor that I could not speak french well anyway let alone with flem coming out of my throat. Had to show up to another class for an hour long quiz...we call those test in my book. He also decided to give us a "little assignment" due Thursday. Taking 18 hours this semester was dumb. December Graduation could not come any sooner, let me tell you.

Today at 4:00pm I had to cancel a big event for my students. Did I mention I'm a youth minister? I realized that I would have to throw something together last minute and that does not glorify God. This is very humbling for me because I feel that I can do everything. And that does not glorify God. I think that just because I put in poor efforts God will make up for my crappy job, this does not glorify God. So after I made the phone calls and sent the emails to everyone letting them know.... I fell apart in my office. The homework, the illness, the rat turds flooding my office that I too busy to vacuum, the seven dollars I am short for rent due tomorrow and the lack of control I have in ministry all came crashing over me.

Jesus came to me in that moment of failure and self pity. He told me it was going to be alright. I realized that I am not in control and that glorifies God.